Behind the Lens | Resting…Or Trying To

“I just can’t figure out why I am so exhausted,” I told my friend, having felt like my body was a ton of bricks and wouldn’t obey my will to get going. “Well, maybe it’s because you haven’t rested,” she said quickly.

At first I thought that was a funny statement since the whole point was that I was having trouble waking up in the morning. Then I realized what she meant. I haven’t RESTED. There is a difference between rest and sleep and I definitely don’t do the first one well. All my life I have been known as the ‘girl who never stops.’ At first I thought maybe it was a compliment…you know, like I’m a go-getter and all. As time passes though, I’m not so sure that it is a compliment as much as it is a complicated reality that is catching up with me. In the last few years, I have been challenged more and more on this. Learning the art of rest and realizing that I’m just plain NOT good at it. I like to be on the move. To feel the thrill of being busy. To face the challenge of ‘getting it all done.’ I’ve prided myself on it, I suppose, but recently (much to the credit of my body) I am seeing that it’s not something to be proud of. God Himself knew the art of resting…so maybe I should as well.

This week has been one of the craziest in a long while, with sessions almost every day and in places all over the state. Not to mention, some life decisions and technological complications that have added stress. It’s been a week that has challenged me emotionally and physically…leaving me much in need of some rest. True rest. I wish I could tell you that I have a weekend planned full of rest but that’s not exactly the case. I won’t be working all weekend but some. This is more of a public confession of my need to establish some intentional practices of rest. Maybe when the whole Internet knows, I just might make some changes. Fingers crossed.

If you are like me and struggle to make time to simply be, I encourage you as I encourage myself to take it seriously. Something tells me that it will be worth it.

Happy Friday!

“Be still and know that I am God.” – Psalm 46:10

GilbertEngagements_0003

 

 

 

Your email is never published or shared. Required fields are marked *

*

*

Back to Top Contact Me Share on Facebook Tweet this Post Email to a Friend